Something to know about me: I care about everything more than is safe. People, school, dance, commitments, appearances and opinions too probably….To make up for that I like to pretend I don’t. I also tend to set low expectations (except when it comes to people – I always have much too high expectations that really aren’t fair because people can seldom ever meet them and I set myself up to be disappointed – but that’s a topic for another night), or at least appear to set low expectations so that I can appear not to care so I can appear not to be disappointed.
someone once told me this was a dumb quote – but I’ve always liked it despite the cliche nature of it
“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all.”
I am done being cautions. I am done not giving my best out of fear it won’t be enough – that it won’t be what I thought it was. I am done half doing things. I am done pretending not to care to not risk embarrassment. I am done worrying about what anyone else thinks. In the end I am accountable to me and to Him – so as much as I love the rest of you – I am done being concerned with your opinions.