Two years ago Ben and I sat in a dark car and talked about what we wanted. He didn’t want to date anyone else, and given how much I saw him, I didn’t have time for other people. Last year as we drove home again from the same friend’s birthday party, we were alone in a car, reminiscing about the past, and talking about what we wanted. That friend is now living thousands of miles away so there will be no long dark car ride to talk tonight, but there are still things that I want.
I want a family. Ben and I are a family now but I can’t wait for children. I’m not saying they are going to happen right now, but I am under no delusion that I will do anything else more important in my life than raise those beautiful spirits. I love them already.
I want to date. Ben and I have lots of big changes coming up in the next few months and in the next few years. So many things will be different, including us, but I don’t want to ever stop dating him. Our relationship will include so many new things (other little people?), but I want Ben to not just be the father to my kids or my roommate, I want him continue to be my best friend.
I want progress. I want each year to be better than the last. Sometimes I wonder how that can happen when so much about life is so wonderful already, but I believe it can. I want to fall deeper in love with him. I want to be more committed, more understanding, and more caring. I want our life to be fuller, more focused, and more purposeful.
So Happy Birthday, Dave. We wish we were there to celebrate your commencement into the late twenties and laugh about the time you thought discussing Ben kissing me in Spanish would mean I couldn’t understand you.
And here’s to wants, marriage, progress, goals, and a wonderful two years of dating (who says that dating stops with marriage … we like to count from the beginning).
All photos from our engagement session – photo credit: Andie Schindler